Finding my new normal.

What is 'normal'? I'm positive that it is a word that should not exist. Here is what Google had to say about what normal meant:
(n) the usual, average, or typical state or condition.

(adj) conforming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected.

My normal 4 months ago was Mom/Dad working, loving, active parents. Kaed and B went to school and babysitter during the day, played with Mom and Dad at night. Fast forward to today and it looks a little like this Dad works, Mom stays home with kids.... ahhhhh!!!! Now, Kaed is 7 and Bailey will be 5 in just a few short weeks, they aren't new borns who require around the clock attention, so it isn't horrible but it's a change! Definitely not falling into either of the definitions above. 

I have always been the 'Super Mom' = in graduate school, in work full time, having two kids in activities running them around and trying to be a good housekeeper. (The later of which usually suffered the most!) And now, I've graduated my Master's program, I had to quit my job and move across the country for my husband's career, and now take care of the kids and house. I love my kids, but being stuck in a tiny, two bedroom apartment, with no TV, video games, internet, or separate space... you see where I'm going. 90% of the time, they don't even need me. Playing games, reading books, coloring pictures for their friends and wrestling keeps them pretty occupied; not to mention hours on end at the pool! I'm here to cook lunch and referee - which happens toooooo often.

But, I'm struggling. The most challenging thing on a day to day basis is 'what are we going to eat today?' Most days, I cook lunch and dinner and have it waiting for my husband when he walks in the door from work - who am I? It's definitely a change that I'm taking on and 5 days in, I'm doing okay. But, I'm looking forward to something coming along to mentally push me again. Volunteering, school work, and work - all that I'm seeking to keep me engaged. 

So, regardless of how bored I am at home, how many books I'm reading or how many times I make Mac 'n Cheese, I'm trying to settle into my new normal of being the best mom and wife. Phew - it's a lot of work!